15-03-12

I am 25, work in an office under the title, Customer Service Officer.

I'm loud, talkative, bouncy, and a little bit crazy, but when it comes down to it, i have always done well at work, aside from being (slightly) late and forgetting things. I have tried my hardest at this job to be on time and had been early by an hour and a half for many weeks in a row.

I've recently been rewarded with the responsibility of looking after our biggest contract, along with another reliable girl. I have received a lot of praise from customers and account managers, i thrive on this and it's something i will always seek in whatever i do.

HOWEVER, about 6 weeks ago i started on Dex for my ADHD.

I started on 4 x 5mg daily.

7am, 11am, 3pm and 7pm.

My focus wasn't improved as much as i'd hoped, and my eating and sleeping was barely affected at all.

Then i went up to 4 x 10mg daily, at the same times as before.

For the first few days i was fine, aside from a little bit of appetite suppression, i slept almost the same, so i was happy with that.

The focus was a bit better, but again it could be better.

But then i started having issues sleeping, which resulted in having issues waking up.

4 days out of 6 i haven't even heard my alarms and i've woken up reaaally late and been 1-2 hours late.

I've discussed my new medication with my managers that there would be some teething problems with sleeping and eating and they said they understood. However today i was told off and made to feel like shit for it, despite yesterday cutting out my 7pm dose to try and help me fall asleep earlier. I set 9 alarms on my phone, 2 on my partners and our alarm clock, i even had 2 people give me wake up calls. I actually heard them this morning but i still woke up an hour late.

I have been making up the extra time, and more, that i've missed, but i still got into a heap of trouble. I was reduced to tears.. I don't know what to do.

Today i only took my 2 morning doses, i'm still worried that i won't wake up tomorrow, and the stress is really getting to me. I don't know if i should just stop the last 2 doses without talking with my doctor but at the same time i can't keep letting my workmates down.