Gah i am SUCH a procrastinator, been meaning to write on this thing for days, and Sunday night isn't included because i'd originally wrote that for something else.
Rewind to the weekend.
Friday night we visited my sister B and her husband, also B, and their girls, H & F. My other sister K and her boyfriend T were there too. We had enchiladas and played with the girls before they went to bed, it was lovely. :)
Went home and found visitors in the house but i was ridiculously tired so i went to bed.
Actually, that reminds me.. The Thursday night before the weekend, R and i had a massive fight which ended in me smashing stuff in the spare room and smashing a huge hole in the wall.. This was at 3am. Oh, and i tried to drive away but R was behind the car with his heels dug into the ground pushing with all his strength against my car. He is a gem, he puts up with so much from me and my psychotic behaviour.. hopefully we can start to fix this soon.
Saturday morning i woke early, the rest of the household had had a big night so i tip toed around and did some housework and ended with making R bacon and eggs for breakfast. Started the big drive to the country to go to R's Dad's Wife's 60th birthday. Sooo the car spun out before we even left out shire, hahaha! Lucky it was in slow motion, R wasn't even driving like a maniac, but he did have different tyres put on the day before and he thinks they were put on wrong which is what caused the lack of grip. Another plus is that it happened slowly and R is a great driver! It poured with rain for the majority of the way so that also meant aquaplaning it down the highway. Scary!
Hung around at the party for many hours and then headed to one of R's friends house. Actually had a lovely time despite getting stuck on writing a cover letter and resume for someone.. i swear i spent 5-6 hours on this thing. It was marvelous! I love when i can focus my attention.
Which brings me to today.
I finally got my own desk and computer at work, although it's not the spot i'm going to be in permanently, it definitely was a big step up from having to sit behind people and listen in to their calls.. I set myself up with 3 different projects and worked on them for a small amount of time each, and then repeated. That's how i work, if i only have 1 thing to do i feel restless and useless and it leads me to being VERY bored and agitated.
I left early because i had a docor appointment at 4pm. Got there and waited and waited and waited. My psychologist, C, came out and told me that she was dealing with a crisis and if i could wait, i could see her afterwards. I didn't mind waiting, but it did make me more nervous. I'd picked today as the day to speak openly about what i thought was wrong with me.
I explained the anger outbursts and after about half an hour of talking, she asked what i thought was wrong with me and when i said, "ADD" she was virtually like, "Oh my god, how did i miss that? You have all the symptoms blah blah blah." Basically, i have to try the breathing exercises and if they don't work in 3 weeks time, i'll have to be booked for a psychiatric assessment for ADD. Good to know that all those years of her study and training and all the money i'm spending, i had to tell her what's wrong with me.
Oh well.
I'm actually tired right now, finally. Bed time :)
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