2012

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

It has been a busy few weeks since i was last able to update this thing.

Just had a look and i'm not sure why but my last entry is actually an old one, so please excuse that.

After feeling the disappointment of the psychiatric assessment, i decided to do my own research and attempt to find a doctor that would help me. I googled around for a bit until i found a support group for people in Melbourne. The people on there meet up once a month and they all have some great ideas on how to live with our condition. From what i've seen, they all agree that medication is necessary in most cases, but treatment shouldn't end there. So while i persue the doctor avenue, i am trying a variety of other things to help me cope. I have started writing everything down that i need to do and slowly, but surely, i can tick it off. That said, i haven't ticked anything off just yet, but at least i did the writing it down part. :P

Went to see someone i met through the support group last week and he gave me the name of a GP to see and two possible psychs to try and get referrals for. Was refreshing to speak to someone with a clue and it's inspiring to hear what he's trying to do for people like me.

One big thing that i want to achieve this year is to cut back on beer and start exercising. I say this with a grain of salt because i have failed at this many times before. I will start off small and go from there.

Another thing i want to do is to write up a cleaning/chore roster (it's on my list of things to do!). I am sick of the house being a pigsty and R not doing anything to help me. I think this will be a great way for BOTH OF US to keep on top of things since we're probably as bad as each other.

Backtracking a bit, Christmas was lovely. Spent Christmas Eve Eve at my parents having an early Christmas due to my sister, her husband and their twins going to New Zealand the following day. We were meant to have it at their house but Dad has had complications after an operation and had to go back into hospital on the Thursday. Thankfully his operation was postponed and he was able to come home for our early Christmas. We got there and jumped straight in the pool, it was god damn hot! Then ate dinner with the fam. All the siblings/partners/children were there except for my older sister and her daughter because they live in Queensland and couldn't make it down. Had a great time but fell asleep on the couch rather early. R and my brother S kept the party alive until midnightish, R and i stayed in my little sisters room and she slept on the couch. Went home in the morning, got everything ready to go away and then i drove to Sale. Spent the night at R's Mums house, caught up with his sister S whom we hadn't really seen much of since she got back from England a few months back. Played a game of "Sorry" and then went to bed rather early. Had Christmas lunch at his Mum's and then drove out to Briagalong (middle of no where...) to see his Dad. By now there was a serious storm brewing. Melbourne had recieved massive hail stones that destroyed cars.. it is safe to say that i was extremely stressed about my poor baby boy J. We had to leave him at home for 2 whole night. My sister K was coming to feed him later in the night but until i knew he was safe, i couldn't relax. R got his Aunty to check on him since she lives around the corner. He was fine, just a bit hungry, so she fed him for us. :)
Left his Dad's the next morning with R driving. I was exhausted but not as homesick and i normally get, which is a big step up i suppose.

Had everyone over for a BBQ on Boxing Day, our friend C was over from Perth so it was a great excuse to catch up. Everyone stayed and i had an awesome time, hope everyone else did too. :)

R and i both had to work between Christmas and New Years, something we hadn't done before, LAME! Work was busy and stressful, i am so not dealing well with it at the moment.

New Years was spent at a friend's house in Berwick. They have a pool, BBQ and eskys so it was a lovely evening spent swimming, drinking and eating. Fell asleep around 4am, woke up at 10am with bacon and eggs waiting for me. Had another swim and accidentally fell asleep again shortly after lunch. Woke up at 5pm, went upstairs, and accidentally fell asleep yet again.. haha. Woke up 7:30pm and R and i went home. All that sleeping had left me wide awake so i spent last night bored. Fell asleep around midnight and slept until almost midday today! I must have been tired.

Hoping that this week is better at work, my brain is about to explode from all the stress that it's giving me lately.

Hope you all had a wonderful festive season.

Over and out. <3