It is REALLY frustrating that i cannot do one thing at a time.. Like right now, i've tried to sit down and have a Big Bang Theory marathon but i couldn't JUST do that.. Firstly i started cleaning, then i played with my phone, then did some more cleaning, then the phone, then straightened my hair, then thought about food despite not being hungry, then put on a load of washing, then jumped on the computer and now here i am, writing this, attempting to watch TV and over the top of this, i keep clicking buttons on my phone and then realising what i'm doing.. FUCK. It annoys me so much. Then comes the part where i cannot sit still without fidgeting.. even my GP commented on it at my appointment recently. She said, "Why do you think you have ADHD? Besides the fact that you haven't stopped moving since you got in here.." She was great by the way, it's amazing the difference a good doctor has on your experience.. She talked me through the process of being assessed by a psych registrar and then leading onto another assessment by a different psychiatrist, and what would happen if i got diagnosed.. I mean, she didn't really tell me anything knew, except that it's really really hard to get a diagnosis of Adult ADHD because of the drugs being "speed", her words. Anyhow, i have my assessment on Friday, extremely nervous, it's taken me 10 years to get to where i am, and finally i might have an answer and a solution! But it's also a huge relief.. well it will be when i hear what i want to hear, i think i'm mostly scared that they'll say that i'm faking it.. I know that i'm not, i've been researching this for coming up 3 years, and there's nothing else that quite fits my symptoms.
Anyway. Tonight i don't plan on doing much.. It's raining and i have no motivation to do much more than a couple of loads of washing. Today we went on a bit of a spending spree and i bought a new bag.. my first ever real bag, makes me feel like i'm growing up.. it's about time, i'm almost 25! Also bought a wireless keyboard and mouse for when i plug the laptop into the tv, and a couple of blu ray movies.. I'll probably never watch them, but i like to own them :P
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